Big Black Coffin

Just a quick blog of thoughts before I go to bed.. I should be using this time to write my Drama thing, but I have no inspiration for it at the present time.. Plus I am kind of avoiding it..

I definitely hate my desire to be held and loved. I mean, I know that everyone gets that. It's part of being human. But to me, it's almost more of a desperate need rather than just a want. I would love for someone to be able to hold me as I fell asleep. In fact, no, that would be great. I don't sleep well at all (12:40am with school tomorrow) but when I am with someone else I sleep so much easier.
It's more a fear of being alone, I'd say. Not just a slight fear. A real, deep fear. One I can't really explain. To put it simply, I just want to feel loved. It'd be nice. Knowing and feeling are two different things, and while I know I am loved, I want to feel loved. Really loved.


Over and out x